But, sometimes as a mom, I don't act like Jesus. And sometimes not so much because I'm mad, but because I have a hard time determining what type of parental choice Jesus would make, in the heat of the trials and drama of three small girls. And I get frustrated about it.
I want to know Jesus so well. And truly "get" Him so much, that even when my emotions and blood pressure feel like they are about to go through the ceiling, I can confidently answer the question WWJD? And then actually do it.
Jesus, what practical parental choice would you make when your 18mo old is screaming in the high chair covered in applesauce, while one 3 year old just fell on the floor in a pool of tears because you got her a little spoon instead of a big spoon, and another 3 year old is in the bathroom yelling for you to come and wipe her booty?
And please don't misinterpret my tone. I truly believe He has the answer.
My post is about my issue.
I'm staying home full-time now. And in my quiet time with God, I feel like He's asking me to be still. To accept His love for me and define myself simply as His beloved (rereading Abba's Child)(one of my all time faves!) I'm learning so much.
And then my kids wake up. And it's practical application time. I start my day (and my ministry) and pray that all this good stuff that's happening in my heart is ever-present in my day, as I lead my kids.
I think that's the true test of growth. Grace in the hard times. That in the toughest of trials, I could hold up a mirror and still see His reflection. I'm not sure that happens all the time here.
As I read the Bible and read about the life that Jesus' modeled. I'm so inspired. And challenged.
I feel confident that he's asking me to abide in this new season. And I'm learning to carve out times of solitude with Him.
And I think it's so that I can really hear Him in the stillness, when my life is so LOUD. And that as I hear him more, His voice becomes so familiar, so easy to decipher, that when the NOISE is at it's loudest, I can still hear it.
Because, I know He knows how LOUD it can get over here. And that it's not always the kids.
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3 comments:
I love this post, glad you wrote it. Please keep writing.
I've just come across your post, and found it very honest and thats a rare thing (at least in my part of the woods...), and challenging, it's always a challenge to live out your faith in the home, ESPECIALLY in the home I think, and I'm coming from a pre-kids viewpoint! I look forward to hearing more of your blog :)
Sarah
http://melancholyadventures.blogspot.com/
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